When it all comes to an end

Posted on November 23, 2013

It’s funny… Regardless of what you’re doing or where you’re doing it, ending something big always feels the same.

It doesn’t matter if you’re breaking up with a girlfriend or shutting down your company, it always has the same flavour.

There’s an emptyness, a fear, a finality, a heavyness that always comes with it, along with the question:

Was this the right thing to do?

Today, I finished something big: The Attraction Institute.

It’s been the major focus of my life for the last 7 years and today, I shut it down.

Not because it wasn’t working and it wasn’t helping anyone. That would have been an easy decision. I shut it down because my heart was no longer behind it.

When I first started AI, it was my passion.

It was the last thing I thought about before I went to be and the first thing I thought about when I got up in the morning.

I talked about it with everyone I knew and thought about it when there was no-one to talk to about it.

But now, the passion is gone.

There’s no more drive. There’s no more desire.

In fact, when I think about updating it, it hurts my brain.

So today, I finished it.

I wrote a big article outlining exactly what was happening, why it was happening, and when it was happening.

And now I have that ‘finished’ feeling.

That kind of feeling that makes you want to sit in a hammock on the back verandah and stare at the night sky wondering what’s going to fill that massive hole in your life.

It’s so strange to have that gaping hole now…

I’m not sure what I’m going to fill it with. I have a few ideas, but they’re just ideas. Nothing is concrete or actionable just yet.

For now, I’m going to do what I always do in times like this: run a bath, sit and soak, and contemplate the universe.

 

 

Leigh


4 Replies to "When it all comes to an end"

  • Lauris
    November 23, 2013 (3:07 pm)
    Reply

    Is there any way to subscribe to the articles you post here?

    • Me
      November 23, 2013 (10:04 pm)
      Reply

      There’s no subscription list yet. I’ve still got to get that up and running.

      If you use RSS, you can subscribe to that at the bottom of the site and that will keep you updated. Other than that, you’ll just have to come back an visit.

      Sorry brother.

  • Alex
    November 24, 2013 (1:11 am)
    Reply

    You’re a champion. Thanks for everything over these past years. If it weren’t for your books and blogs I’d probably still be religiously studying Mystery Method and basing everything on success with women, rather than living life, loving life, trying to be the best I can be for myself and my community.

    Everything seems tiny and insignificant when you zoom out far enough, so I hope that your recent comments about there being much bigger problems in the world (while totally valid) haven’t caused you to devalue just how wonderful a thing you’ve made of yourself so far.

    I’ve got two metaphors written on my bedroom wall which I feel you successfully adhere to:
    “Life your life as a work of art”
    “Life is a celebration, lets live it together”

    I suspect that wherever you go from here and whatever you do, you’ll be able to meet the challenge and continue pulling it off. Keep us updated with where you are heading!

    • Me
      November 24, 2013 (1:55 am)
      Reply

      Thanks for the kind words mate. It’s nice to know that it all made a difference.


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