This is what it feels like to fail…
Posted on August 9, 2012
I’m slowly realising just how closed I’ve been to what’s really going on around me.
I thought the stories were just feminist propaganda designed to fan the flames of blame and injustice. It turns out I’m wrong.
Despite what I previously thought, there are a LARGE amount of Men around the world who not only resent women, but actually hate them.
And not a little bit, a LOT. They have huge amount of stored up and repressed anger for the fairer sex and it’s starting to work it’s way into my world.
Working with the incredible and brave guys at The Attraction Institute is incredibly inspiring. They’re courageous, open minded, and empowered. They don’t blame other people, they take responsibility onto their shoulders and strive to make the world a better place.
But not everyone who finds their way to the Attraction Institute is like that.
When the first comments started popping up on the blog, I dismissed it was just a few angry guys blowing off some steam.
But there’s more now. Lots more. It seems like every second day I’m having to respond to some guy leaving a hate filled rant somewhere on The Attraction Institute (check out the comments down the bottom of this).
Then, this thread started: It’s Your Choice
Despite what he says, this is an angry man who has a LOT of resentment for women. I’ve talked with him, I’ve tried to help him, but he’s dead set on blaming women for his situation in life. It’s funny, after trying to work with him and getting nowhere, I felt something that I haven’t felt in a LONG time.
I felt like a failure. I felt like I was standing in front of a situation that I had no idea of how to handle and no ability to influence. It’s a sensation that used to be a regular part of my life for a very long time and something I haven’t felt in a long time.
I felt like I was 18 again, standing on the side of a night club, watching all the beautiful women and having no idea what to do.
I felt like I was 20 again, stuck in a job that I hated with people I despised, forcing a laugh at their hate-filled jokes so I didn’t become the target of them, but being to scared to leave because I didn’t know what else I could do.
It really took me back. But things are very different these days.
Over the last few years, I’ve always been able to find solutions. I’ve always been able to find a way to create the life I wanted, regardless of the external circumstances. I’ve grown to take full responsibility for my life and everything that it contains.
But now, right now, I have no answer for this…
It reminded me of two very important things:
1. Relying on your ability to control the external environment is pointless. If you do, you’ll forever be at the mercy and the whims of thigns beyond your control.
2. Just how far I’ve come and just how far I’ve got to go.
This isn’t the end though.
I’m not going to lay down and die. There has to be a way. There has to be a way to reach this guy and help him.
I’m writing a post on how to deal with resentment for women right now and it’ll be up on the Attraction Institute blog very soon. Hopefully it will work. Hopefully it will help him see past his limitations and create a more beautiful and amazing place.
And even if it doesn’t, I’ll be one step closer to my goal because I’ll know that it’s one more way that doesn’t work.
There is an answer, I just need to find it.